I do. I feel exhilarated. Life isn’t always this way. In fact, the past week and a half have been an intense struggle for me. [What seemed like] Everything went wrong. Work was stressful like its never been before. Every doubt you could imagine was running through my head. My dreams seemed like a foolish waste of time. Purpose and ambition were almost non-existent. I was angry and tired and dejected and unhappy.
Thankfully, life has been this way before, so I knew exactly what I needed to do.
I believe that it is always crucial to life, true, free, real life, to abide in God’s Word daily. It is imperative to pray often, in every situation, whether it be in thanksgiving or in the midst of darkness. But especially in times of despondence, strength should be drawn from the Lord. He loves us so much. I don’t have a lot of experience with a good father figure on this earth, but I know that our heavenly Father loves perfectly and without an ulterior motive. I have been reading in several parts of the Bible lately, but the one part that has been on my mind constantly is Genesis 39. Poor Joseph. He had a rough time for a while. I don’t think he felt very exhilarated when he was being sold into slavery by his brothers. He probably wasn’t stoked for the future when Potiphar tossed him in jail. And when the cup-bearer waltzed out of prison, only to promptly forget Joseph and his plight, I bet Joseph wasn’t very encouraged. But the common theme in his life was that he trusted God and obeyed Him. In Genesis 39, it is emphasized FOUR times that “The Lord was with Joseph”. There are more than six accounts of how God blessed Joseph and gave him success in the things he did. What an encouragement! I am not saying that we need to obey God so that we can receive blessings. We obey and trust God because we love Him, and that should always be what drives us. But how beautiful, that we have a Father who lavishes us with good things, merely because we are loved!
God has brought me out of some pretty rough situations in the past. He has given me incredible gifts that enrich my life and give me opportunities to give what I have back to the Lord. After the rough week I had, there isn’t much more to feel, except extremely happy. It has been so easy to fall into the trap of worrying about my situation, and what is in my future. It has been easy to mindlessly fall into a pattern of focusing on myself and problems that cause me stress. Frequently, I have to remember that my purpose on earth isn’t to have a comfortable life. My purpose is to serve God and work to further His Kingdom on earth. My job is to be an ambassador for Christ so that others may come to know Him and be filled by His Spirit. My fun job and my comfortable apartment, my car, my hobbies, my friends, my fitness, those things are all just bonuses. They are things that not only I can enjoy, but also that I can use to serve God more often and more sincerely. I am so blessed!!! As usual, my life looks nothing like I anticipated a year ago. But also as usual, letting go of the control that I crave results in God guiding me to something a thousand times better than I could ever imagine. I am so thankful that God’s scope is so much clearer and can see so much further than mine!